Tuesday, July 25, 2006
ok. dun ask e why i got this blog skin. no the guy in the picture is not hot. even if he is i m not interested.
so i found out tat being quiet for a dya is impossible. 1st, people will ask u why u so quiet arh? why u look so sad? why u blah blah blah. thank you all for ur concern. but i jus wanna be quiet for a moment lah... u noe... quiet type of feeling... so when i quiet, it does not means i m sad or anyth, it jus mean i wanna be quiet. 2nd, me myself cannot control myself. i NEED to tok.. lol
sheezer, my bloodeh "M" become insensitive liao
yes so i was thinking alot. i dunno why i jus thought and friends and stuff. i mean at one point i tot i could live without friends. its like. ok. i m lonely, no one come disturb me, no one come ask me this and that. i will jus be mean to people and bite of their head whenever they piss me off. i wanna be like that. so i can concentrate on stuff i wanna do. like studying. yes i wna to study. we wake up at 6 in the morning just to study dun we.
and i realise "Genius of hardwork will surpass born genius one day" yes they do. i m not saying i m a born genius but i gifted with the gift of jus paying attention in class makes me pass. i m blessed. in a way of another. i m losing out to people who work hard oreddy. guess i need to buck up. yes buck up. i need to score well this year. its a promise i make to myself.
and i finally know how sasuke(a comic book char.) feels ok. here his story. he is a born genius. he teams up with a coplete drop up. and one day. he feels threaten by the drop up surpassing him. so he turn to the dark side and blah blah blah. yes u get the picture.
why i say all this leh. because one. i feel threaten some how. 2, i picture myself as sasuke. not tt i m a born genius, but someone who started out better. blast me flame me wadeva man.
its like when u do something well, no one bothers cos u r expected to do well. when a drop out do well, everyone applauses for him and praises him.
"Everyone needs praise."its like when u do badly, people makes u feel worse and when a drop out does badly, no one go bother him cos he is expected to do lidat and will encourage him. not the genius.
"Everyone fails."thats how streesful people feel. dun tink being what u call good is fortunate ok.
"Everyone needs care"cheers,
ttk
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