Tuesday, June 27, 2006
yes. alot of bloodeh things have happen to me 2day and i am now freaking pissed. totally freakingly bloodehly pissed. u see there is bloodeh stupid lame boring meaningless fashion show nonsense shit. and guess wad. i m taking part in this bloodeh stupid lame boring meaningless fashion show nonsense shit. yes cos 2 of my good female friends wanted to take part. ok i went with them but i freakingly dun wanna take part in this bloodeh stupid lame boring meaningless fashion show nonsense shit because i noe i cant make through anything. ANYTHING. nothing will go right this year. i jus effingly noe it. no, dun ask. so iw ent the bloodeh rehearsa 2day. it was okay. no quarrels, no nothing shit. just a few ah lian wanna-be-dancer trying to model like they are the worst slut on this pathetic earth. yes they do. and if you all happen to see this. i dun give a damn see all u wan. it is the fact.
den my 2 good friends went to one fo their homes. den i realise i cant have the tie cos one of them will wear them. ok fine. i dun mind. but wad freakingly piss me is wad she ask " izzit okay with u?" why the hell u ask me my this stupid question for. it is obvious that I can have any thing to say or u wil barrage me with words that will sink me into the core of the earth and melt into a frigging pool of oil. yea. talk about wasting resources. and one more thing. i m nto angry with u jus piss that u ask me that quesiton. dun ask that kind of question anymore. never. at least not to me
next. the other friend ask me to bring me effing normal PLAIN blue shirt. why the hell do i need to bring. ITS JUST A EFFING NORMAL PLAIN STUPID BLUE SHIRT. yes. i m pissed when she tried to force me to bring. i find things redundant my friend. why mus we do all this extra. i dun wanna be lead by u all like a cow, friends.den she got pissed too. den she cut off the song at the last moment. fine by me. its i sending u not you. so do whatever you want. just dun force me to do stuff i dun wanna. i dun like being forced. is like u getting controlled for doing nay single shit. i wan freedom, friend, stop it.
u see, i am not the kinda person i am before. i have done alot of thinking during the past stupid boring school holiday where i have nothing better to do. i dont wanna get lead at and do whatever people expect me to do. i wanna do wad i wanna do. dont force me into anything or i will pissed. real pissed. so pissed that... well, just very pissed.
and i oso dun wan to do things that are redundant. things that i noe will have no meaning to it. i mean. i was dumb. doing stuff that end up to ntohing but nothing. i dun want to do this type of nonsense anyth. they jus amount up to nothing but a tired sould this is dumb, i dun wan to be dumb.i 'll try. i dun wanna try to be friends with anyone i see. i dun wanna have close friends and stuff. i jus wanna survive and do well. yes. i m gettin cold and hard. but this is all i realise after 14 years and so.. sorta dumb ain i.. u all will figure out.. somewhat somehow...
i guess i will do fine. at least so far its ok.
cheers,
ttk
7:16 PM
